Now at KPJ, Seremban for covid swab test, then if negative so can proceed with lung assessment.
After that, need to update AME panel in nilai for final conclusion whether fit or not fit for offshore.
All these processes sbb did declare masa isi borang medical status kat kat panel clinic nilai tuh. The declaration of asthma, migrain and depression. Suprisingly, only astma yg that AME sgt concern kan walhal my feeling and thinking yg migrain attack and depression whatsoever ni lagi2 concerning kot. But he kept concerning about astma condition, so funny.
Most likely, he is a person from group of people yang lebih selesa deal dgn benda yg norm and typical likelihood for death. But migrain and depression are so-so and manageable. So funny sbb these 2 things yg i feel boleh invite me into "that me" and the dark hole. Tapi cant blame this kind of group sbb science comes first and most likely the signs come later or final or not even been considered pun kot.
Apa2 ajelah, at least ada pengalaman utk covid swab test tadi, within 2 to 3 saat nye pengalaman dicucuk until penghujung hidung ni. Sakit sakit tapi lagi kesian dgr budak2 yg kene lalui swab test, all of them were crying so so loud, kesian. Doa2 agar anak2 xlalui pengalaman sebegini lagi, please Allah, seek your kind protection, aminn.
Still awaiting for result swab test tadi, within 1hour, in sha Allah dapatlah and then go back to level 3 clinic. Ya Allah, mohon agar Kau permudahkan urusan medical ku ini, dan bimbing ke arah jalan yg baik2 dlm career ku ni. Kalau offshore itu baik utk ku, bukalah jalan dan permudahkan. Sayang Allah, sayang Rasulullah. Apa nak jadi dlm career path ku ini, just ikut aje la ye nora binti ismail. Ada rezeki, ada lah ye. Klu xde, bersikap matanglah ye dan terus fighting.
Walaupun your mind state and emosi ko skrg ni dah resume into low low mood and xstable, tapi ko kene settlekan process medical offshore renew part ni ok. Dan walaupun your dream td ada mentioned ttg encik nomad (again) thus resulting your mood jadi spoil sudah pagi2 hari ni, tapi pls keep reminding the body system and keep praying yg encik nomad and nora binti ismail sudah agreed utk kosong-kosong. Just repeat the reminders ok, you can do it. Walaupun ada planning utk reach him back for tanya khabr etc, but pls dont dont and dont, sbb, it will be no good declaration and action to potray. Dont because that fool and immature planning, later kesudahannya akan bring harm and no good reputation towards your parents kan. Yelah, perigi mencari timba, kan mcm xsedap didengari tuh. Remember, always be good with your closed ones especially parents, so, pls dont dont and dont decide melulu. Biarlah ada roller coster in your mind tuh, and just remain it inside. Please me, please. You are no suit for love story, apatah lagi marriage life. So pls lawan keinginan utk reach him.
Allah ada sokmo, pls always minx doa dan petunjuk dari-Nya dan juga selawat atas Rasulullah dan his family and friends. Byk dah they went tru utk agama Allah yg sgt benar ni, so if you feel down sbb xdpt love life lagi, jadi ajarlah mind and body system ttg agama Allah in deep way prior can share it out to others by dakwah yg wise dan bukan entah apa2 nye cara dakwah. It requires lots of efforts and planning tuh ye, nora binti ismail. So, slowly shifting your self towards that goal ok. In sha Allah, that goal akan dipermudahkan. Ingat, nak buat that goal sbb nak mayat nnt ringan, wangi, mati dlm senyuman yg manis, abah mama keluarga dan kwn2 rapat punya nama akan jadi lagi baik sbb people might talk good things aje, wah xsabar nak begitu, aminn aminn.
Hope my "time to go" comes early dan bukannye my closed ones. Ya Allah, aku mohon padaMu.
