Salam ahad.
October 2025 sudah, today 5 October.
Period hari ke-3, masih 50-50 period pain dan masih heavy flow.
Period day 1 was on recent 3 October, wow awal compared w previous months:
October (this month rn): 3hb
September: 7hb
August: 10hb
July: 10hb
But overall, still period within W1 of the month. Perhaps awal lagi period this time around asbab berhenti makan ubat seroquel, asbab makan ubat darah, asbab byk makan fruits seperti orange apple dan banana, or juga stress masih tinggi dlm badan (hormon kortisol) sbb masih x swimming practise semula dan stress masih x boleh gerak2 kan badan semangat mental utk clean up rumah sewa 1108 ni. Also stress sebab masih x dobi lagi anything, last month sept mmg x dobi at all, entahlah, tup tup dah october 2025.
Rasanya perlu consume ritalin, ubat ADHD yg doktor najib from Mind Matters bagi rituh on 28 Sept ahad yg lalu. Doktor said “now mindset dan target goal ialah perlu be productive dan no more procrastination utk execute everything inside mind ni into the outside world”, kira mcm gituh la. Hmm, so rasanya kene juga perlukan experimentasi w ritalin ni walaupun diri ni masih ragu2. Yelah, previously xanax was on then on off then off. Pastu seroquel (quetiapine) on off, on then off. Cymbalta masih on dan terus on. And now onwards, new meds to put in the system which s ritalin. Doktor ckp, ritalin dpt sustain the focus and semangat for few hours shj and not permenant pun. Hmm, rasa sedih dgr that fact sbb itu hanya sementara effect. Yelah, lupa pulak yg adhd dan autism ni adalah lifelong disable condition.
Jadi moving forward, memandangkan mental illnesses nora which was depression sudah kebah stable dan which is anxiety makin better walaupun masih ada sket lg in the system, jadi mmg rasa it s about time utk focus solution ttg adhd dan autism. Walaupun sementara solution pun sementaralah kan, as long as boleh done clean up rumah sewa ni dan boleh done practise swimming few times prior jumpa semula dgn doktor najib nnt.
Plus, kene tahu keberkesanan ritalin ni juga either it could boost semangat waja ke kan, so kene experimentasi asap juga ni prior end of this month ni to see the result. Sebab kan 31 October till 2 Nov nnt ada Family Day, jadi perlukan semangat waja dan extra tenaga utk be solid productive pada ketika itu kan. So yeah, ritalin it is, kene amek ye nora, it s ok ada fear tuh and it s really ok.
Kita target by esok monday or selasa ye to consume it w cymbalta, sementara masih in period mode dan x solat ni kan.
Target utk get it done prior jumpa doktor najib dan prior family day:-
-dobi for 3-4 bakul
-clean up bilik baju
-clean up dapur dan bahagian blkg
-clean up semua kipas (dah berhabuk semula dah, last rituh bulan May or June 2025 done cuci dah)
-clean up ruang tamu
-swimming practise every selasa, rabu, jumaat dan sabtu
-dptkn berat badan 59kg (recently checked berat was 64kg, oh what???!!!!! Punca effect seroquel ni oh no! Kene 5kg to burn tho ni, alamakzzz)
Xpelah nora, we got this. Ada few weeks lg, so it s ok sgt tau. Xpe, take it slow but surely kene makan ritalin tuh ok. Kene makan juga by next week ok. Dah ada ikhtiar depan mata kan so guna aje ok, nnt wasted pula kan.
Stay focused dan doa terus menerus tau. Seperti palestinian dan aktivist2 yg fight for Gaza humanity especially team Global Sumud Flotilla (GSF lead by Miss Greeta from Sweeden, an autistic brave beautiful soul) and now being supported together by Freedom Flottila team. Kapal2 tuh semua tahu yg 99.99% possibility mereka x dpt reach gaza for giving away humanitrian aid to Gazanian. Tapi sebabkan semangat dan kepercayaan “The How Part” tuh yg sedang trigger semula semangat dan support from org awam yg lain. Those activists x kisah sgt the result yg bakal ditangkap dan diseksa oleh zionist kejam nnt, tapi asbab “How” yg they did tuh amatlah touching touching hati ramai org dunia ni. Terus usaha dan percaya.
So itu yg kita akan amalkan ye nora. Terus usaha dan percaya. Lantak pi gi lah result nnt december 2025 dpt or x dpt resume kerja, and so just stay focused on “The How Part” theory ni ok. Teruskan beramal dan berharap dan juga delulu as people always said kan “being delulu is the solulu”.
Selalu cakap dgn Allah ye nora dan selawat byk2 ok diri.
