Assalamualaikum diri,
Salam subuh walaupun x solat subuh lagi sebab mau spill the idea input dekat sini dulu. Takut terlupa so perlu journaling dulu dekat sini supaya self-prep prior meeting w all the doctors soon akan jadi lebih matang, compacf, genius, impressive dan teratur structured. Aminn aminn, in sha Allah.
This month august 2025 bakal mengstresskan mental dan physical yeee. Kesemua medical appointment bakal di-follow up this month; starting w HTJ dulu on 7th, then Mind Matters on 12th and lasttly w Klinik Tan on 15th kot klu x silap. Jadi mmg perlu do the same skrip supaya sesi utk each tuh lancar dan less than 45min period.
Yoshhh!
So antara rasa-rasa utk update nanti adalah:
1. Bulan 6:
1) out emosi sbb pre-kematian, kematian dan pasca kematian of my bulus babies (a dog named blacky and a cat named luna; both female, suspected been poisoned w unknown substances and so ganggu saraf then sawan and paralysis then lastly die bye bye). Emosi rasa sgt2 down dan uselss sbb x menjaga amanah Allah dgn baik, jadi menangis heavily utk mmg ada for 1-2weeks.
2) still consume meds including xanax.
3) tidur ada hari x dpt tidur at all, and mostly hari tidur as usual by 10pm to 12pm sleep then wake up for an hour+, then sleep again from 1am+ to 3am+ and lastly, for 3am+ proceed do the brisk walking activity w other dogs sekitar neighbourhood. So total sleep during the night is +-4 hours total.
4) dari segi makan minum, kurang rasa selera makan dan hanya paksa diri utk makan sket utk lapik perut supaya kemudiannya dpt telan ubat pagi (for cymbalta), tghr (for xanax) dan malam (for cymbalta).
5) aktiviti swimming diteruskan as usual. Belajr sendiri without fizikal coach sbb x ready utk ada f2f session w any human.
6) ada family conflixt sedikit w my father sbb his red eyes symptoms. He didnt wanna go for checkup although for weeks (since may) suffering w the condition. Bergaduh cold war between me and him. Emosi rasa very extreme ‘koyak’ sgt dgn his subborness.
7) aktivity dalam rumah; dobi managed to get it done 1x in a month but major/weekly proper cleaning based on planning since last year dec still x dibuat. Tapi small2 daily cleaning dpt buat as usual.
8) period awal sedikit drpd bulan May so masih observing which weeks yg betul2 rasa alive dan rasa died/no energy.
Bulan 7 & 8 nnt later posting to do.
Jom solat subuh dulu.
Cheers.
