Salam Hi Hello diri,
Good job sbb smlm done dobi & done makan real food nasi waktu sahur, not bad.
Walaupun minum air kosong x cukup 2L smlm dan emosi/tenaga got super drained towards the night smlm, but:
1. you did a good job. At least done dobi kan (after sebulan+), which s way way better than previously yang dobi x buat2 selama 3-4bulan. It s ok, baby or tadika step. Kita try maintain dobi perlu dibuat by monthly, we try together ok diri :).
2. you still consumed meds walaupun 99.99% almost decided utk x nak makan utk malam sbb rasa terlampau drained. Good job, it s ok, ttg bab meds mmg kene activate VETO button which s the mind and heart x boleh at all voting dlm bab ini. Kita dah set this into default kan, dah mmg becoming an auto habit utk makan cymbalta 1pilll siang and then 1pill malam. Xanax pun kita masih makan kan siang then malam tapi kita target bulan june nnt kita slow2 ignore xanax ya. Parking je dulu ttg xanax ni in mind ok diri.
Good job tau smlm.
Dan juga 3am+ tadi today also good job, sbb terus rutin bawa dogs brisk walking walaupun tenaga/emosi dlm keadaan drained/emo/x stable. U did go out waktu tuh walaupun rasa perasaan useless tuh amatlah menebal, tapi u pentingkan dogs punya happy drpd niat mahu terus bed rotting. Good job babe!
Also good job juga sbb pagi tadi dpt kawal semula emosi ke normal vibe setting after tiba2 menangis selama 30min+ dan tiba2 in depressed mode. Rasa sedih nyilu kan waktu tuh, but it s ok, now dah x rasa mcm tuh kan. Kawal ok, we got this.
Ok ok, memandangkan u setuju utk x mahu layan perasaan depressed, i setuju w your syarat2 for a win2 condition. U dont want to eat real food nasi kan today (pagi tadi pun x order nasi, & mlm ni pun x nak makan nasi apa2 kan). So i setuju tapi counter offer that u must drink 2L air kosong dan makan pisang tau. Baru fair kan. Ok then, we do mcm gituh ya. Kene makan food sebelum makan meds, x mau mcm smlm buka puasa hanya minum air kotak soya then makan meds. Alhamdulillah the gut x meroyan afterwards, alhamdulillah. Jgn main2 dgn gut, you know it right. Bila gastrik ke gerd ke or wtv inside stomach tuh meroyan, masak tau u and i. So kene extra careful ya diri.
It s ok. Just imagine dan terus delulu utk esok punya planning to do. Kita plan to swim kat pool s2 kan esok pagi dan esok ptg. So just imagine dan berangan aje ttg esok yg kita tiba2 ada skill berenang macam katak walaupun right now very zero ilmu dan training. Yg penting esok doa2 x lemas apa2 hahahah kalau x, malu dgn org2 especially lifeguard hahaha. We got this ok.
Love u and i, love diri.
